i guess i'm changing.
i see the value in corporate fasting, like i see the value in liturgy and corporate prayers. so the Lord must be working miracles for this free spirited gal. some of us free spirits do well in structure, and if there's one thing i'm learning about myself as the years go by, is that while structure challenges me, it also helps me grow in ways i wouldn't normally.
this call to repentance and confession was read corporately at our church on ash wednesday. the start of the lenten season.
"genuine repentance involves two things: the dying away of the old self and the coming to life of the new. the dying away of the old self is to be genuinely sorry for sin, hate it more and more, and to run away from it.. the coming to life of the new self is whole hearted joy in God through Christ to express our longing to live joyful obedience to God.
peter preached to the church saying, Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, and that times of refreshing may come from the Lord.
let us lay our hearts bare before the Lord.
father, we confess that our faith is weak.
your presence and your promises are invisible to us and we doubt you.
because of our abiding doubt we have begun to believe that we have no other way to be at peace than to secure it for ourselves.
and so we have found other things and have served them all, living for them in hopes that we would reach a place of rest that only comes from salvation from your son.
more than that, we know that we do this.
we confess it weekly yet we do not want to fully repent.
we are afraid of being bored by you, being left empty or lonely or unsatisfied.
we know that you might make us wait for what we desire or answer our prayers with "no."
we do not trust your promise of love enough to let go of our armfuls of idols;
we are trapped bu our fear of losing them, even though they have left us sick and unsatisfied.
help us forsake all the replacements of you, and to turn our whole being toward you.
letting no corner of our heart be off limits to your lordship, that we might completely repent and live a life of ongoing repentance. Lord we call out to you for mercy and new life in Jesus name. "
based on the heidleberg catechism, Q&A's 88-90, Acts 3:18
adapted by redeemer fellowship church in kansas city.
if you need a lenten devotional, this one is pretty great!