the other night i was standing in front of the mirror brushing my teeth, thinking about life and parenting and probably a thousand other things. but something in particular rolled over and over again in my brain.
the chief goal of man is to glorify christ and enjoy him forever.
i believe that entirely and wholeheartedly. i have come to love this particular saying and repeat it to myself and others often. it is part of the catechism that most of us aren't taught anymore but are incredibly important.
as i looked in the mirror, i began to cry thinking of sunday mornings growing up as a child. my father is not a perfect man and we disagree and argue over theology, fashion,and the best way to get a laugh often. but i remembered that while waiting for my mom to get ready for church, my dad would gather all 6 of us kids in the "nice room" (the room we did not play in) for a little chat before church.
when you die...we will all die. i will die and your mother will die and you will die. we are not going to be here for very long. but when we die and you fly up to talk with God and he says, "jami, why should i let you into heaven?"
i would say, because i am a nice person.
no. you need something more.
i would say, i go to church and i read my bible sometimes.
no. that's not it.
you must say, because Jesus died on the cross for my sins. he is the only thing that you have going for you.
my dad said this for many, many sundays for many, many years to all of his children. it was an important thing to say, but i didn't feel the weight of it. i didn't understand it.
and when i stood in front of the mirror 22 years later just doing a normal routine thing, the memory came back and kissed me on the lips.
because i was not good that week. i was not a wonderful mother. i was not the best friend. and was not a very good wife. i was mostly selfish and self consumed.
and this is where my savior pulls up the "nice room" with the grey tweed sofas and the church going children, with the mustache wearing father saying, no. it must be Jesus. that's all that God must see on you.
it is so good to remind ourselves, our children, our friends, and anyone who has ears, that it is about what christ has already done, not what we are doing.
that God must see Christ, not jami.
perhaps that freeing bit of grace will kiss you on the lips today too.