Thursday, March 7, 2013

when the days seem long


when you're snowed in, with no where to go, for the third day in a row...you start to realize that the days are very long. as a mother, we wake up and do the same thing over and over, our tasks never end, and our jobs have no closing hours. this is a long season. and it feels really long. i look ahead and have a hard time seeing when it will end. kind of like snow days, they will come to an end because they have to. but in the moment, they feel like forever days. part of me wants to cherish it and part of me wants to sprint through it.
the needyness of it. the physical exhaustion. the dying to self. the sacrificing. the discipline. 
there are so many amazing things about motherhood but sometimes i get lost in the long days and the mundane and the to do's and the if i have to tell you one more time! and i can't see through all of it.

we sang a song at church, rock of ages. and i thought, this is for mothers. 




rock of ages, when the day seems long
from this labor and this heartache i have come
the skies will wear out, but you remain the same
rock of ages, i praise your name.


weary mothers all singing together. singing about their weakness and about God's tireless love and his ability to remain the same when they themselves can not. i needed those refreshing words. 


rock of ages, "it is done," you cried
the curtain's torn and i see justice satisfied
now write your mercy here on my heart and hands
rock of ages, in faith i stand.

yes. do that for me Jesus
write your mercy here on my heart and hands.
write your mercy when i'm feeding the kids.
and when i'm playing
and when i'm disciplining
and when i'm brushing their hair
and putting their coats on.
and when i'm bathing them.
when i'm cleaning up their toys for the 800th time.
and feeding them.
when i'm terrible and when i'm kind.
when i do it right and when i do it wrong.
let mercy be on my hands so that they see Jesus and not me.
they need grace just like i do.





Rock of Ages, when in want or rest
My desperate need for such a Savior I confess
Pull these idols out from my heart embrace
Rock of Ages, I need Your grace



Rock of Ages, my great hope secure
Your promise holds just like an anchor to my soul
Bind your children with cords of love and grace
Rock of Ages, we give You praise



this song is by sandra mcCracken and you can listen to it below.

33 comments:

  1. I will say from the voice of a competitive swimmer, in the sliding box photos, Layne is a MASTER at streamline! He's ready to dive and start swim team.. for sure! ;).

    I hope you begin to melt out, soon! I got snowed into KC last week trying to get back home in Colorado!

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    1. holly!!
      we're hoping for swim scholarships in his future.

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  2. love this song and Sandra McCracken! you should check out Indelible Grace that she and Derek Webb are part of.

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  3. Amen and amen! I think, like you described, the hardest part of mothering in the season of little ones is the constancy of it. Then, when I read the Gospels and see just how very constant Jesus' life, it makes me MORE grateful that He is my High Priest, able to understand my life because He lived...Emmanuel, God with us!

    Hoping you find joy in the constancy today <3

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    1. so true. and we need a miracle to make us consistent. it's good to know that our only hope is clinging to the one who was consistent to make us consistent. i just said consistent 800 times. lol

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  4. though there's no snow here, we've had a week or so. amen. last night i ended the evening laying in bed with mary for 25 minutes... i repented of my bad attitude towards her which led to a very good spiritual conversation involving about 87 questions. it ended with this... "no, but mom, what is the holy spirit's name... like middle name, last night and first name?!?" after a few replies that weren't satisfying i answered "his first name is 'holy' and his last name is 'spirit'." i was laughing so hard at myself i couldn't get the word 'spirit' out. not as funny as i type it. but, it's moments like this that i know the grace and presence and joy of God as we love our children.

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    1. hahahaha. holy esmerelda spirit. that's actually his full name.

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  5. Jami, God has been using you to speak directly to me lately. Thank you for being bold & sharing about your long days. You are a faithful servant to Him & blessings will abound :)

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    1. you are sweet. i don't feel bold most of the time. sometimes publishing is a struggle... :)

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  6. i love, love, love that song.

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  7. Such an amazing hymn! I love this version... Check out the indelible grace version too...also stellar! Jesus has used these exact words to comfort my soul as well so lovely.

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  8. this post is so near to my heart's cry this week. thank you.

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  9. One of my very favorite songs. Moves me to tears almost every single time I hear it. Love this application.

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    1. if you listen to this hymn while your kids are screaming in the background, the application becomes quite clear. LOL

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  10. I needed this today! Yesterday was a hard parenting day. I went to bed exhausted but too worried about my kids to sleep. Thank you!

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    1. Praise Jesus that his mercies are new every morning

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  11. One of my favorite quotes on hard Mama days is, "The days are long, but the years are short". So true, huh?!? Sometimes, I can feel my insides chanting the quote. I love your blog. All of it. Thank you.

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  12. One of my favorite quotes on a hard mama day is, "The days are long, but the years are short."...so true, huh? Sometimes, I can feel my soul chanting it to my heart so I don't lose my freakin' mind. ;) I love your blog. All of it. Thank you.

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  13. thank you for sharing. i needed this song. i needed to read your words this morning. the Lord continue to bless you and your family.

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  14. beautiful song, thanks for sharing.

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  15. Thank you. Needed this today. I am a fellow weary mama. So, so weary. :)

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  16. We had a similar week- snowed in and sick- the Lord gave me a fresh perspective that I wrote about here http://delightfulmomstuff.blogspot.com/2013/03/perspective.html - I love reading your post too- motherhood is not for the weak! Cant wait for spring!

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  17. I feel guilty when I complain about days spent with my little...especially because I work full time, so weekends are our only long stretches together. But OH are those days long sometimes. Sometimes in a good "i want to hold on to this forever" kind of long...like summer when you're a kid. And sometimes in a bad "when will this ennnnnnnnnnnnd?" kind of long...like post office lines when you're a kid. I love that first verse so much. He remains the same...through all my good and bad.

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    1. we all feel guilty no matter if we stay at home or go to work! mothers are just balls of guilt a lot of times. lol. praise Jesus that we don't have to feel shame for our weakness.

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  18. I love that song! One of my favorites...

    and it is good to be reminded-as someone who aches to be a mom- that there are painful weary struggles in absolutely every single stage of life.

    and how did your kids grow up so fast?

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    1. i remember that longing, julia. the days are long for you too...in your waiting. love you.

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  19. this is beautiful and exactly what i needed to hear. you are such an inspiration. i may never meet you in person, but i am excited to party with you and the rock of ages in heaven!

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  20. seriously great post! the winters months are the worst, for me, b/c we trapped indoors :) thank goodness for jesus and pinterest .lol. but, really, thanks for sharing your heart!!

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  21. Hi Jami,

    I've read your blog for a few years. I've never commented before, but today, real quick.... I just wanted to tell you something simple, "I like you." "I like you, a lot." I think it every time I read your blog, so today, I am tellin' ya. You're inspiring. I've used your blog posts in my own life and shared them with others who have struggled in theirs. Some of your posts have actually saved souls. That seems heavy, but it's truth. Thanks for being you.

    Kristi ....in Idaho

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