Wednesday, August 22, 2012

it's over.

i remember looking at nato thinking that it was over. how can i make him come back when he doesn't want to be here. he doesn't love me anymore.
it's done.
there's no hope here.

it really wasn't. my perspective of God was too small. because i viewed God to be someone like me. i don't have endless love and patience. i can't see beyond my capacities as a human. so He must not be able to either.

why is it so easy to forget that we do not serve a human God.

we walk to the edge of the ground and we say, i can't go any further. there's no place for my feet.
and then the sea opens and He says, it's not the end. look, i made a way.

he's a miracle worker in hopeless situations.
and takes dead things and makes them alive.
He redeems things that had no value and were despised.

this is where He chooses to work. in the broken places.

the suffering we experience is not something to sprint out of, it is something to press into. God let me see more of you. work in ways i can not. change my heart. i need new eyes. i need something beyond myself. 

this is called brokeness and it is good.

your suffering is not about the circumstances and the situation. it is about You and God and His story. it is about your heart.
you say, God save my marriage! hurry! it's the end! it's all over if you don't act now! 
and God says, i want your heart. 

you say, this is all too much! my life is over! take my pain away!
and God says, you of little faith. Look at me, not at your situation.

you say, the storm will take me under! i can't do this! no one can survive the waves!
and God says, i made the storm and i made you. look at me. who is bigger? 

God is bigger than your biggest mess and your impossible dreams and your heartache and your pain. your broken marriage and your severed relationships. He's bigger than your depression and He's bigger than your troubled background. He's bigger than that hidden sin in your heart and your secret relationships. He's bigger than your breakup and He's bigger than your abuser. He is bigger than your perspective and your unbelief.

our God is called Redeemer for a reason.
let me say that one more time.

our God is called Redeemer for a reason.

the Hope of this God is free to everyone who believes.
believe that there is hope in your situation because God says there is.
He is enough for you.

68 comments:

  1. This right here? Dang good. So good this Truth. I may just print this out for my fridge.

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  2. amen. reflecting on this very truth today! praise jesus, our relentless redeemer!

    love you, jami xo

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  3. beautiful reflections. I think many of us go through the same thing, thinking something is over, done, unrepairable. But there is hope and prayer, and when we are brave and pray, well God moves stones.

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  4. Thanks for this...and all your posts really...! I read, but don't comment, sorry for that ;) I'm trying to be better!!
    I appreciate your words so much.

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  5. The way you speak truth gives me goosebumps. I think these same thoughts, but could never articulate them near as powerfully as you. God definitely uses you in a mighty way! Thanks for the reminder. We don't serve a human God. It is so hard to wrap our minds around it but nothing is impossible with God. Your love story is amazing. Thanks for opening up and sharing it!

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  6. Thank you for allowing God to use you to write these words. It is true! "Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Cor. 12:10

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  7. after just finding out about a devastating situation in my best friend's family, this post is so fitting.
    so perfectly fitting.
    the timing couldn't have been more perfect.
    God works in mysterious ways... He does.
    thanks for sharing your heart, yet again.
    you rock jame!

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  8. Incredibly wonderful and true are these words! Love this post.

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  9. This may be the most beautiful thing you've written yet. Thanks for this and thanks be to God for His endless love. His grace is enough.

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  10. Thank you for your honest words, Jami. They are beautiful.

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  11. fist pumps and amen, girlfriend!

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  12. what a beautiful word for me sweet sister. thank you

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  13. Love, love, love.... and thank you, thank you, thank you for posting this, so in a place RIGHT now that this is exactly what I needed to hear.
    Beautifully spoken.... or shall we say, blogged... I think we shall!
    Your friendly follower and I kinda wonder if maybe possibly doppelganger?!?! (but your waaay cute-er!

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  14. He is bigger. Hope lifts you up. Amen.

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  15. Omg, just sent this right to my husband who left a month ago, let's hope he returns. thanks for hope!

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  16. You wrote this for me today!

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  17. Wow. This is amazing and such an awesome reminder of how BIG our God is. Thank-you!!! Thank-you for using your gift of writing to boldly encourage others. I feel very sheepish about this, but I've been reading your blog for years and this is the FIRST time I've every commented! I know, how rude! I'll try to be a better friend from now on, since you are a part of my everyday life and you just didn't know it. Promise!

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  18. I'm grateful beyond words for this! <3

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  19. I am grateful beyond words for this! <3

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  20. Thank you for your honest words. I have really enjoyed getting to know you through your blog and love your sarcasm and words of wisdom about our dear precious Lord. I read all through your story about you and your husband one night when I was really contemplating giving up on my marriage. My hubby has bipolar disorder and I had been ignoring it for years. The Lord opened my eyes recently after I was at my bottom and gave it all to Him. He washed the scales from my eyed and I truly feel like He has brought me to an amazing place in my relationship to Him and to my husband. Thank you for sharing your story. I bought the book you recommended called "Redemption" by Mike Wilkerson. Just wanted you to know how the Lord has used you and your experiences to uplift a total stranger! Thanks!! Stacey

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  21. Thank you so much for your honesty on this blog, for your experiences that the Lord has used in your life and for your sarcastic humor! I read your story about your marriage at a time when I was feeling very vulnerable in my own marriage and these experiences help me tremendously. Just wanted you to know that the things Jesus is teaching you and how He is using you right now has affected me, a total stranger! Keep it up and rely on Him for your strength!

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  22. God is speaking through you. I am thankful that you are obedient in your transparency. He is using you and it is a wonderful thing to witness and learn from.

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  23. Thank you for this...it's beautiful.

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  24. It's crazy that I've never walked in your shoes or gone through exactly what you have. And yet, that God and those words are so stinkin familiar to me. They are the exact same messages in my heart. It makes me know that much more deeply that He is real and He is the beginning and end of all our stories.

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    1. truth is truth. it can be applied to anything. you're right...God is so huge!

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  25. I just happen to do be up this late because.....I am LEAVING FOR CHINA TOMORROW TO BRING HOME MY SON!!!! WOOT!!

    Ok, that's over now. Anyway, woohoo! You bout had me shoutin' and having a running fit. Thank you Father that you can redeem ANY situation!!! Even 6 years as an orphan. Thanks for this. It's a good reminder for me as I face the anxieties and fears that come with this journey we are about to take. :)

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  26. So true Jami & so well written. Thank you for sharing your thoughts...

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  27. So true Jami & so well written. Thanks for sharing your thoughts...

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  28. Thanks, Jami, this is so very beautiful. And amen, God is definitely the Redeemer. What a wonderful post to read while sipping my coffee this morning :)

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  29. Thank you for your encouragement Jami. Exactly what I needed for where I am at. Praise the Lord.

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  30. hey jami! thanks for this post. i started to share it with some friends and God said, "no, i had her write that one just for you".

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  31. Thank you for this post...really needed this right now

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  32. thank you for sharing this jami! i think i need to re-read this every single day. haha

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  33. I loved this! Thank you for the reminder!

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  34. Thank you for talking about this! For posting your truth and then being strong enough to continue sharing as the layers of healing occur. I recently shared our story of Beauty from Ashes with the world, and as I do follow up posts, I am having commenters ask, "Shouldn't you move on past this?" "If you really forgave him, why are you still talking about it?"
    Since when does talking about it make me full of bitterness or unforgiveness?
    It's funny, the women who are fighting for their marriage after betrayal, commend us for moving forward so quickly and in such a healthy way. The ones who have never walked this path, point their fingers in judgement.
    It's blogs like yours that keep me posting from the heart, whether my motives are misunderstood or not.
    I simply want the Lord to use the shattered pieces of my broken marriage as a beautiful mosaic for HIS glory. That's it. And talking about it, blogging about it, learning to LIVE with it, is all part of that journey.
    Hugs, T

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    1. should we stop talking about our sin and how God forgave us when he died on the cross? oh, it's not pretty...don't talk about it. but talking about forgiveness mirrors the Gospel. NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT REDEMPTION! it is the most tangible thing we have pointing us to Jesus. and that is so good,

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  35. beautiful post. powerful truth.

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  36. You spoke right to my heart. <3

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  37. I found this blog today for a reason. Thank you.

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  38. Thank you for sharing your message. It brought tears to my eyes. Because it made me feel hope. Hope for trying to build that God-shaped hole inside me bigger. And a reminder that I am not alone when I am in pain. Thank you!

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  39. Are you sure you don't follow me around? This is the message God has been trying to get across to me the last couple days. Thank you.

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  40. i know i've said it before, but when i need something big, i come to your blog, and you've written words that are just so, so fitting for what i'm going thru at that exact moment.

    thank the Lord he's made you his spokesperson. i worried & worried about what my readers would think of my faith, but because of you, i did it. and, quoted you...

    take a look if you so desire...

    http://rositadesigns.blogspot.com/2012/08/finding-my-spirit.html

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  41. Love this so much !! This thing really touch my heart ;)

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  42. This is so good I just involuntarily cursed under my breath. True story. And thank you. I'm pretty freaking glad to know you. Er, "know" you.

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  43. This is so good I just involuntarily cursed under my breath. True story. And thank you. I'm pretty freaking glad to know you. Er, "know" you.

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  44. thank you for blogging.
    thank you for sharing.
    thank you for this.
    amen.

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  45. Hi Jami.
    I'm Davi.
    Now that intros are out of the way...
    I laugh every time I think about you putting hand sanitizer under your armpits.
    anyhow. thanks for posting this. I feel like I'm in a helpless situation with a friend I have.
    i'm so sad about it.
    but your words are gonna help keep me dreaming for the impossible.
    in the meanwhile, i'm becoming closer to God than ever before and I'm SO thankful and wouldn't change my situation for the world.
    end of angsty teen saga.

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  46. Loved this! Thank you and I'm a new follower! Love, Traci Michele!

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  47. Hey girl,... God has gifted you, Did you know that?? & I bet you never thought at the time, that from the ashes of your marriage, He would make something so Beautiful. & I bet you never thought that He would take that mess & your pain & use it to Bless SO many.
    Thanks for allowing Him to use you... you spoke to me & Blessed me today...
    (& Yes, please write a book... : )

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  48. Almost had an "over" moment...like the REAL 'over' moment. Can't let Satan win this one. My hubby just said instead of telling Satan to get away from you all the time, maybe you should talk to God instead. Duh...yeah, I know. Wish you were my next door neighbor so I could bend your ear. Thanks for your amazing posts.

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  49. This post reminds me of a song our kids learn in preschool called "God is bigger than the boogey-man." Great song, great powerful words.

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  50. I've been reading this post for days. I even printed it out. It sounded all good and great and I was all for it until I realized its happening to me. I thought if I read it and shared it enough that I was good. Today I see that i am STILL trying to control my situation. My Lord is waiting for me to fully believe. And honestly, I don't know what will happen, but I thank you for reminding me to trust...not try to control...trust. I have to. I have no other option.

    Courtney
    Courtney_denney@yahoo.com

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  51. Hey, my name is Aanna. I feel like I know you because I'm good friends with Maria Casteel and you often come up in conversation. Always in lovely ways, of course. :) I just wanted to tell you that I've been reading through your blog today and It's been wonderful. I laughed so hard I cried when I read about your son's school picture. (Actually, I was breastfeeding my daughter when I read it and I was laughing so hard she jerked away and basically tore my nipple off. So then I was just crying.) But then all your posts about gratefulness were so interesting and so I kept reading and then I got to this one and I started skimming it (which is a sign that the Holy Spirit was nudging me and I didn't want to pay attention) and so I slowed down and really read it. Now I'm going to spend some time thinking about how God isn't here to fix all my problems, even the really sad/bad ones. He's here in my life because he wants my heart. And he's called Redeemer for a reason. Just wanted to say thank you for writing Truth. I really appreciate it. I hope we can meet someday soon. Love, Aanna

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  52. Hey, my name is Aanna. I feel like I know you because I'm good friends with Maria Casteel and you often come up in conversation. Always in lovely ways, of course. :) I just wanted to tell you that I've been reading through your blog today and It's been wonderful. I laughed so hard I cried when I read about your son's school picture. (Actually, I was breastfeeding my daughter when I read it and I was laughing so hard she jerked away and basically tore my nipple off. So then I was just crying.) But then all your posts about gratefulness were so interesting and so I kept reading and then I got to this one and I started skimming it (which is a sign that the Holy Spirit was nudging me and I didn't want to pay attention) and so I slowed down and really read it. Now I'm going to spend some time thinking about how God isn't here to fix all my problems, even the really sad/bad ones. He's here in my life because he wants my heart. And he's called Redeemer for a reason. Just wanted to say thank you for writing Truth. I really appreciate it. I hope we can meet someday soon. Love, Aanna

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  53. this is an old post. i've read it probably three times since it first got posted. but i went back and looked for it tonight because i needed it. thanks.

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  54. I stumbled across your blog from Pinterest. I am so glad our God is the Great Redeemer. My brother was saved this weekend and I cannot express how much this means to me. I'm so thankful I get to see the redemption story played out over and over again, especially in ways like this. God is good, good, good. Thanks for the reminders of how he takes the broken and makes things new.

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  55. I wasn't going to post because there were so many comments already- but I just wanted to say what amazing words flow out of your heart. You have been to those places were there is nothing between you and God- because you need Him so greatly..you feel like you cant breathe without His help. My husband left me and my two kids a couple years ago- that was a season in my life where I have never been closer to the Creator. He is so good- we don't understand why- but learn that He just is. The kids and I are doing great now..my heart back together, praise Abba :)

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