Monday, March 26, 2012

winter in my heart.

so this one time when i thought i knew everything, i decided that as a mother, i had the excuse to not read my bible.
because i'm always interrupted and i don't barely have time to shower!
things like that. i would say this to other moms and they would say, ya, me too!

and in this unspoken conversation we would leave saying, let's not read our bible! yay for us... have a great day and good luck with that!


so i would basically spur others on to not getting into the word and hearing from Jesus. and they would do the same for me.  and what that turns into is off and on, inconsistent bible reading for 4 years. and off and on inconsistent spiritual growth.

i am reminded of growth as spring is in full bloom around here. a dead winter and then life. that's what's happened to me. 4 years of blaaaaahhhh. but this year spring is in my heart.

we have this giant blooming tree branch on our table leftover from a wedding shower and i love it. i stared at it this morning and i thought about growth as a mother.

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can we take a moment to step back from motherhood and say that, as humans, we all need God's truth guiding us everyday. it is so easy to get off to track, to believe weird ideas(even from other christians), to ignore one of the most important connecting points to our saviour.

now add motherhood back into the mix.(insert being a spouse, being a grandmother, being a CEO...) and we're in a time of life where we need abounding wisdom. we are in charge of little humans, trying to pretend that we know what we're doing and we really, we don't. we need help.

we read self help books. or even great books on parenting.  we read blogs. we read our friends ideas on Facebook. but we neglect the word OF God.
OF GOD.
Words of God himself.
 am i making it clear? too much? ok. but you see the point. there is so much wisdom and help in our bible and we make excuses to not read it. and even more shamefully, we let each other believe that it's ok if they aren't reading. it's ok that you are reading life giving words full of wisdom when you need it most! 
sounds absurd, huh?


God tells us to read his word, not because it is a task to prove our allegiance to him. a hoop to jump to say we're christians. it doesn't do anything FOR God.
God tells us to read his word because it is for our good. because in his kindness, he gave us a guide book, instructions, and life transforming words of the Gospel.

because we don't know what we're doing and we need help. because our hearts are fickle and we turn from Him so quickly and put our hope in other things.

let us all repent of not making time to read our bible consistently and with a grateful heart for such wisdom we have at our fingertips. let us repent for not calling each other out on this. for not asking one another if we're reading our bibles. it is disobedience wrapped up in excuses that our life is too busy and exhausting. and it is wrong.

we all can make time for what is important to us.

and even more, let us stop saying, i connect to God by going on a walk. or doing artwork or listening to sermon in exchange for reading God's word. (you can connect to God by those things. but frankly, it's not the same thing as reading your bible).

God wants to transform your heart today. to give you a new mind today. right where you're at. right in your mess.

and furthermore, we are forming the minds and hearts of our future leaders, teachers, mothers, fathers, mechanics, politicians, waitresses, presidents, movie makers, artists, and the list goes on. and we want to do this haphazardly?

feel the weight of that.
it feels heavy to me.

i wonder what it would look like for mothers to repent and turn back to God's word for the wisdom and transformation to live out today and impact others for His glory. i wonder what that would look like in our families, neighborhoods, schools and circles of influence?

it would probably be pretty major.

do you need a reading guide? this is what i use. 

58 comments:

  1. ummmm...think i am going to go read my bible...like right now. thanks, jami. as usual you are right on point. i cannot tell you how much i enjoy your blog and the fact that you represent christ so well. i am sure that you are reaching people you never imagined. anyway, like i said, thanks.

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  2. it just AMAZES me how every time i NEED something - a slap in the face about the man upstairs. a virtual hug when i'm feeling down. a laugh to turn my frown upside down - i can count on finding it here.

    thanks for this - it's time for me to stop saying 'i'm gonna read that bible' and actually do it. so, truly, thank you.

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  3. Amen, girl! This is something I've been very convicted of lately. When it all comes down to it, its a heart issue. Would I rather sit down at my computer and check out my favorite blogs(like yours:)) or spend time in quiet devotions with my Creator?
    Too often I've chosen the computer. And then I wonder why my day becomes a wreck. If I don't plug in to The One who created me what more can I expect?
    Here's to challenging each other to be better believers. I'm off to unplug now...:)

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  4. And on a totally unrelated note, I LOVE your dining room furniture! It looks fabulous against that grey color(what color is it?)

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  5. Last night was one of those nights that reduced me to the maturity level of a 5 year old. At least I was still more mature than my 2 year old. And I almost went to bed without reading my Bible cause there was no way I was going to do any digging and study at that point. But then He said "HEY WOMAN PAY ATTENTION" and so I did, and it was the best 10 minutes of the whole day. I am realizing that I just gotta start. I think if I can't handle a whole hour of deep and amazing, I shouldn't take the 5 minutes. He is always there, waiting for me to listen. Thank you for being an additional reminder to get into the word OF GOD every day.

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  6. Thanks for the kick in the pants. I just watched a video of a tribe in Indonesia receiving the Word of God in their language for the first time. What they were so grateful for, I take for granted.

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  7. jami,

    for a long time i excused my lack of being in the Word on being a mother. in the last few months i have been reading the bible and praying while i eat my breakfast. it isn't getting up an hour earlier or sitting in quiet, but the kids are eating and watching some morning tv and i sit at the table by myself and lose myself in reading God's Word. it has been SO GOOD for me and for my family. i like seeing my Bible sitting out at dinner time and sometimes reading what i read that morning to Seth when he gets home.

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  8. God's Word is FOOD to me, I seriously couldn't survive one day without it! IT'S the only thing that keeps us going and the chaos out of our hearts, we MUST be in His Word, His words are LIFE GIVING, nothing else will sustain us.

    Thanks for getting this out there, and speaking up about something that is a life line.

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  9. Amen! I'm not a mother, but this week I've been grappling with "what to do next." How do I respond to things? How am I supposed to act?! I've been reading other people's thoughts on God, and looking up isolated verses, but I haven't been diving into the Word itself. Oops.

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  10. I needed to read this! I made a goal at the first of the year that I was going to read my Bible in a year. I am 3 weeks behind, and my excuses have been lame. Today is a new day!! Thank you for sharing this!

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  11. Annnd, bam. Right in my face and ALL over my toes.

    I have thinking and repenting to do. Today. When I get home from work.

    Thanks for the kick in the skirt.

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  12. Wow, it's true that I don't spend enough time in my bible because I'm too 'busy', but the thought that I'm enabling other mom friends to do the same is so convicting. I haven't thought about it that way, but it happens all the time! May the words of my mouth and meditations of my heart be pleasing to my Heavenly Father.

    Thank you for having the words and wisdom to share this.

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  13. THANK YOU FOR THIS! I was ALREADY feeling conviced of 'putting God in a box' as our pastor put yesterday. You know, only calling on Him when I needed help, etc. SO, this struck a chord, or 10 thousand in me...thanks for that!

    I've printed the chart!

    Thank you!

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  14. wow, you are so right on. thank you for posting this, and thank you for always saying the hard, uncomfortable stuff that NEEDS to be said. i am so grateful for your blog and your honesty!

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  15. Ouch. Way to put things into perspective. This is speaking the truth in love. Thank You.

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  16. for. real.

    i always *want* to be in the Word consistently and then i let myself off the hook for the day if it doesn't happen first thing in the morning... the truth is, like you said, we make time for things that are important to us. and just now, i logged in to google reader to catch up on blogs. it must be more important tham reading the Word to me, at least today, right? so convicting, and thank you for calling us out. i hope God gives you the boldness to do it in real life, to someone's face, really soon (and me too)

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  17. Good stuff, Jami. Convicted, repenting, getting serious. Thanks!

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  18. Well that was the kick up the butt that I needed.
    Thank you for writing what the Lord places on your heart. I truly believe that He is using you to speak to others and encourage others in their faith. That's certainly what you did with this girl. Keep on writing what is on your heart because we all need to hear it.

    ..and occasionally write a funny story about your family, because I am still laughing about your dad riding that boy down the stairs! HA.

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  19. you need to correct yourself because it is YOU, my friend, that once told me "emily, having small kids is NO EXCUSE to not read your bible."
    ever since then (about 2 years ago) i've thought of that everytime i don't feel like i "have time" to pull the word out.

    so thanks for that, mkay?

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  20. Love this. Thanks for always speaking the truth here. I know that Jesus does that even more than you...so I need to get in the Word. Cause truth fills me up.

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  21. YES! What an encouragement. I've found that often, the times of greatest spiritual growth are through intense trials (when my Bible is the only place I have to turn), but when I'm in a lighter season, it's hard to open up and read and soak it in. My husband is an amazing example of LOVING the Word and I pray that my desire for it will grow more every year. I can't say it always has. Thank you for this... exactly what I needed to read today!

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  22. This is so incredibly encouraging!

    Love love love your blog.

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  23. I totally needed that. Seriously, can you move up here and can we be friends? haha :P A friend of mine linked your blog from your post about your dad/sister's wedding/other sister's unwelcome guest/boxers b/c she thought it was so funny, but what a blessing it was to find so much more :)

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  24. Thanks for being open and relevant today. Just discovered your blog tonight and I am already enjoying your realness as a believer, momma, and a wife.

    www.thesehappytimes.com

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  25. Thanks for being open and relevant today. Just discovered your blog tonight and I am already enjoying your realness as a believer, momma, and a wife.

    www.thesehappytimes.com

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  26. gosh I really needed to read that, and hear that and remember that.
    I'm not a mum and yet I make excuses, silly petty excuses that are useless.
    thank you for being willing to speak out on this, I know that God has used you to spur me on!
    so thanks!

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  27. Ummm..... Thank you.
    And thanks for listening so closely to what God puts in your heart! And even though it is heavy... You still write it.
    Amen, sister!

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  28. revival perhaps?
    which is totally what we need here today. we need souls to be on fire for the living God, and to spread His gospel to those unreached, sad and hopeless.
    this is the best post i've ever read to date.
    and i needed it really badly.
    how can i equip my children, when I am unequipped? scary.
    so thank you for encouraging me today.
    blessings to you.

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  29. You were right. I needed a spanking... it hurts a little, but for my own good.

    I needed to read that before I started my day today. for sho.

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  30. I absolutely LOVED this and NEEDED this.
    Thank you oh so much!!

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  31. this is exactly what i've been feeling, too. i've allowed myself to neglect god's word b/c it's so hard to find time with young kids. yet i somehow managed to reread all three hunger games in less than a week? what? it's shameful to even admit that. this week i've made some practical steps to ensure i set aside time focusing on god's word and praying over it. this was so needed for me and apparently many others today, thanks!

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  32. I started doing BSF a few months ago and it has been the kick in the pants I needed--because if I don't do my lesson then I feel like I'm going to get in trouble. But the hardest part has been giving up part of nap time to read the bible--I feel like it's MY time and it's hard to give it back to God, even though I'm never sorry after I did. I kind of feel the same way about working out. Apparently taking care of my soul and taking care of my body are things I am similarly excited about.

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  33. amen amen! love you!
    we NEED time in the word. we can't afford to miss it. xo

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  34. Wow, I found your site from Jen @ the AZ Russums. This is SUCH an encouraging post because I think so many of us moms have went through seasons like that or repeat seasons like that. It's sorta like eating too much you STILL do it sometimes even though you know you'll feel terrible afterward. You don't get in the word and you end up feeling terrible or at least "just a little off" but not in a good way but when you get back in you wonder why you ever got out in the first place!!

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  35. My Bible's the only self-help book I need, too. Relationships? Covers it. Money? Covers it. Career advice? Covers it. Meaning of my existence? Covers it.
    My go-to book for 10 years and I still read it almost every single day.
    Great post, Jami!

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  36. Jami, thank you for this post. I was convicted (I think with the help of one of your previous posts) to be in the word everyday. I had never read the entire bible all the way through and I needed to change that. I made it all the way through to 1 Samuel and then... Well, life happened. I started using this motherhood (being a wife, moving, writing etc) as an excuse and completely let go of The Word. I have been feeling out of it, overwhelmed, misguided... Surprise surprise surprise. Thank you for reminding me of what is important and what I need to make time for. Going to get my bible right now.

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  37. Thank you for this. It is something I have needed to hear but for some reason, didn't want t listen. I am just a college student and I find myself making excuses and I know that it will only get harder to spend time with God daily if I don't get into the routine of it now. It is so good and thank you for opening my eyes to the importance of it again.

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  38. I was JUST having a convo with a friend about how I really need to get back into the word, but with no real motivation. This was it! Don't ever think that God isn't using you, because He's used your words to reach me, and slap me upside the head! Thank you for your obedience!

    Christina

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  39. You truly have such a beautiful heart. I'm so glad to be reminded about reading the bible by this post. God is really speaking to so many people through you right now! I try to be in the word daily, but sometimes it just slips my mind. Thank you for the great reminder!

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  40. So very true. Thank you for this!

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  41. So very true. Thank you for writing this post.

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  42. Amen! Fabulous post. I needed this reminder. Becca :-)

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  43. amen!

    a couple funny little things: my daughter's name is "Jami Layne" and i find courage and identity in writing without capital letters (even though i am a teacher).

    keep encouraging the importance of consistent scripture reading--we all need Him.

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  44. well said, jami. and well-timed. thanks for that.

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  45. word...preach it, sister. this is truth.

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  46. Right on! I said the same thing and have regretted it too many times to count. Sometimes I think we don't read because we are afraid to take our really messed up selves to Him...like maybe He is just going to just "beat us up" and continue to only show us how awful we are. But the lie is wicked! We need His life giving words EVERY DAY...if we can just trust Him. Thanks Jami - awesome!!!

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  47. can't tell you how very many times i have thought of this powerful, oh-so-true post and attempted to stop making excuses from doing what matters most. THANK YOU!

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  48. Wow. Amen. Thank you for speaking the truth to me...the same words in writing that I know Jesus has been speaking to me in my mind and I haven't been listening to.

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  49. This was ridiculous timing. I needed to hear that...so.badly. Thanks!

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  50. this post is a much appreciated kick in the behind. thanks jami!!

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  51. dropping in from Emily's blog ref from yesterday.. Love, Love, Love, this! Kudos!

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  52. So good. Just So. Good. Thank you.

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  53. Thank you for this reminder. It's a Sunday night here and the only time I've read my Bible is during worship service.

    On my 24th birthday, I created this list of 25 before 25 and one item there is read the Bible once through. It's been more than a month and I'm stuck at Genesis. Thank you for the guide you posted. This will be very helpful :)

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  54. amen.

    found your via lolo.

    love your writings:)

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